o aggelos mou kai to xrwma tou.. :)

Enas aggelos mpike stin zwi mou prosfata o opoios me eide na klaiw.. xwris na exei kamia sxesi, xwris na prosexei ta ftera tou, xwris na skeutei ton eauto tou ksekinise na zei mesa ston diko mou efialti ton opoio evafa me mauro kai gkri xrwma..

etsi skeutike na parei ena pinelo kai ksekinise na vafei pano sto efialti mou me xrwma kokkino mple prasino kitrino, egw omws imoun kollimeni ston efialti mou eixa egklovisei ton idio mou ton eafto kai xwris na to katalavw evafa panw sta xrwmata tou evafa panw sta ftera tou kai ton tsakisa.. ton ponesa ton ekana na kathete se mia gwnia kai na min mou milaei.. otan ton eida na kathete kai na min mou apeuthini ton logo tote gurisa kai eida tis teleutaies pinelies pou dn eixa prolavei na svisw se xrwma kokkino kai katalava... katalava oti dn ithela na zw allo mesa ston efialti gt dn upirxe kanenas.. stin ousia ton ekana moni mou dn evlepa oti eixa enan aggelo dipla mou pou prospathouse na mou ton kanei oneiro..

tote me pire apo to xeri kai an kai tou eixa ferthei toso asxima mou edwse to pinelo tou kai mou eipe einai dikia sou epilogi.. kai ksekinisa... ksekinisa na zwgrafizw me xrwma kai na gelaw na aisthanomai kai na eimai xaroumeni.. ksekinise kai ekeinos mazi mou kai zwgrafizame to pio omorfo oneiro pou mporousa na eixa pote mou alla kai pali ton eixa pligwsei tou eixa spasei ta ftera kai stamatisa na zwgrafizw stamatisa na tou milaw gt fovomoun oti den tou aksiza fovomoun oti dn tha mporouse na meinei edw mazi mou...

ekeini tin stigmi irthe dipla mou me pire aggalia kai me pige toso psila ma toso psila kai mou eipe oti dn tha me afisei pote na pesw to mono pou tha kanei einai na sunexizei na zwgrafizei mexri ekei pou dn tha mporei allo tha sunexizei na mou dinei to oneiro mou tha sunexisei na me pigainei psila...

afierwmeno ston aggelo pou mpike stin zwi mou
se euxaristw pou me afises na gurisw otan se pligwsa
se euxaristw pou gyrises s'agapw....

h tuxh mou

itan i kaluteri apofasi pou eixa parei pote mou kai tis ekana oti xeirotero mporousa na tis kanw.. tin prodwsa..

h tuxh mas xtupa elaxistes ews midamines fores tin porta.. emena mou tin xtupise tis anoiksa kai mpike mesa.. mou prosefere oti agatha zitousa, oti mporousa na oneireutw, oti ithela kai apozitousa.. kai egw sto telos ti ekana xwris na to skeutw kan? tin evgala eksw kai tis eipa fuge..

gt imoun toso ilithia?? gt tin petaksa eksw? twra tin psaxnw kai dn kserw pou vriskete dn mou milaei.. mou klinei to thlefwno sta moutra kai aisthanomai oti tin exw xasei mia gia panta...

kardia...

polles fores oloi mas pername mia asximi periodo stin zwi mas kai dn kseroume pws na tin antimetopisoume.. alles fores to provlima einai oikonomiko alles fores einai oikogeneiako alles fores einai erwtiko... oso afora to erwtiko kommati... oloi tha gurisoun kai tha sou poun kane auto pou leei i kardia sou... ti ki an i kardia mou kanei lathos? gt na dokimasw na tin akousw enw kathe fora pou to ekana me eferne panta pio konta ston gkremo? gt na riskarw na pesw se auton anti na kanw pisw?

telika tin akousa... alla akousa to miso tis kommati gt to allo miso tis ton fwnaze, eklaige, mou ekaige to stithos... akousa to miso tis kardias mou kai omws gia na zisoume tin xreiazomaste olokliri kai oxi misi...

kardia... ena toso mikro organo tous swmatos mas pou omws xwris auto dn zoume... mas krataei zwntanous.. filoksenei exthrous kai filous... Agaph, erwta, xara, eutuxia, pisth, elpida, sofia.... Misos, dustuxia, luph, apaisodoksia, misalodoksia, egwismo, kai alla tosa ametrhta sunaisthimata... ena toso da pragmataki kai omws xwris auto dn pame vima... auto mas kanei to ti eimaste stin zwi mas kai to pws antimetopizoume ta pragmata.. ti ginetai omws otan akoma kai auti dn kserei ti na mas pei? i misi leei gh kai i alli misi leei ourano?

akousa fuge... fuge gt dn se pernei, fuge gt se ponaei, fuge gt ponaw kai gw... kai efuga... ti ginetai omws me to allo miso? to allo miso dn uparxei pia... dn einai edw mazi mou...

oneira...

Na oneireuesai.. ta oneira sunithws prodidoun paraplanoun kamia fora skotwnoun... omws dn ginetai na zeis xwris oneira, den ginetai na min oneireuesai... den exei noima.. dn exei ousia..

Na oneireuesai.. koita mono na exeis stamparei kala tin eksodo kindunou apo ta oneira sou.. tote swzesai.. kai poia einai i eksodos kindunou??
- Tipota dn einai stin zwi to pan. -
exei panta parakalw, exei ki allo, exei kainourgia pragmata, kainourgies skepseis, kainourgies idees, kainourgioi erwtes, kainourgia oneira...

Proxwra loipon, ksekolla..

"gia panta"

tha s'agapw gia panta... tha eimaste mazi gia panta... eisai ta panta... telika kateliksa oti to "gia panta" dn uparxei einai sxetiko...
kai an uparxei kati gia panta einai pseudesthisi pou xwris autin omws dn mporei kaneis mas na epiviwsei...
h elpida to oneiro mas oti tha kratisei kati gia panta i oti tha exoume kapoion gia panta...
to "gia panta" to ftiaxnoume emeis me tis prakseis mas, xtizete dn erxete, kai stin ousia einai duo aples kai mikres lekseis pou mas voithane na proxwrame mprosta na pidame empodia kai na pername dromous... einai mia anagkh opws to meshmeriano faghto...

to trapezi gemato vlemata kai skepseis..
panta tha elpizoume kai panta tha oneireuomaste kai panta o erwtas tha einai i moni aitia telika pou o kosmos aytos tha sunexisei na uparxei kai tha sunexisei na gurizei...

erwtas apla ta panta an kai mporei na min kratisei gia panta s'auton ta xrwstame ola ston erwta kai stis skepseis... gia proswpa pou uparxoun pou exoun fugei pou kouvalame emeis mazi mas stin kardia mas, atoma pou mas alazoun atoma pou me kapoio tropo tha einai ekei konta mas gia mas... gia panta...